Random Rant #3

Do you find out how important something is for you when you are asked to sacrifice it for someone? Or does it sometimes take a long time after the sacrifice to realize how important it was for you? Can you give up something you love for someone you love? Or will it jump up and bite your love in the @ss at some point? What is love? When does it become compromise and what do you do then? Is there always compromise in love? Why don't they spend more time in school teaching you what it's like to become an adult? Why do they leave you with the impression that one day you will wake up and realize that you are an adult? Why don't they explain that things will never seem clearer than they did when you were a kid? Is it too scary for children to handle? Would they give up and never stop sucking their thumb? Did you ever want to grow up? I didn't. I wanted to grow down. I can never remember a time when I would not have preferred to be younger. Except when I was 17. I loved 17. It was the best year of my life. Isn't this pathetic to admit when you are 29? Although, now, I no longer want to be younger. I just want to eventually figure out who I am. I should have been there by now. But I am afraid that, when I find out, I won't like this person.